Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Update

Whew! This year has flown by so fast! I have many mixed emotions for that. Don't we all. I'm proud to say that I am still nicotine free! Wooohooo. I just finished this semester at school with a 3.5 G.P.A. Not what I wanted but it's the best I could do with the schedule I have in my home life. So there is no regrets. I have one more class and than I will finally have a degree, that I wont use. haha Isn't that normally the story of a college graduate? I am getting ready to go into the life insurance business, I'm jumping in feet first, nervous though lots of studying to do before I get my license. Not what I thought I would do, but life brought me to it so, I'm along for the ride. The boys are growing so fast, Phisher is a blast, Cody and Levi are a handful trying to figure out this stage of their life and how to do my best raising them. And of course when Phisher gets to that age, I will have been through it twice already so I'll know how to make that stage of Phishers life a blast as well. Is this why the older children resent the baby at times? Because Mom finally knows what to do? haha. I'm sorry there is no pictures, I uploaded the last bunch to the lap top so they are not on here. I WILL find time soon. I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately and have found myself finally on the other side. The side where I no longer blame God for my life. I have always said I am grateful for my misfortunes because it made me, me and blah blah blah. Now I finally accept the things in my past that I had no control over, I know now that it wasn't God, but the ignorance of man. Finally I can feel at peace with my savior. Not gonna post specifics but I was really put through some horrible things before I even made it to junior high. With those things I made choices that affected my life for the worst. I know now that a girl with out guidance makes mistakes, a woman without guidance takes control and succeeds. Anyway it's wonderful feeling to have let God back into my heart. Well God bless. Have to get back to the family, Have a Merry Christmas everyone! See you in the New Year!

1 comment:

Stephanie H. said...

Love you Beth! I'm very happy for you and oh so proud that you are still nicotine free and almost done with school. I'm glad that you have found love and peace and glad that you are my sister :) It sounds like your new mantra should be "Life is good!"