Wednesday, December 23, 2009


Whew! This year has flown by so fast! I have many mixed emotions for that. Don't we all. I'm proud to say that I am still nicotine free! Wooohooo. I just finished this semester at school with a 3.5 G.P.A. Not what I wanted but it's the best I could do with the schedule I have in my home life. So there is no regrets. I have one more class and than I will finally have a degree, that I wont use. haha Isn't that normally the story of a college graduate? I am getting ready to go into the life insurance business, I'm jumping in feet first, nervous though lots of studying to do before I get my license. Not what I thought I would do, but life brought me to it so, I'm along for the ride. The boys are growing so fast, Phisher is a blast, Cody and Levi are a handful trying to figure out this stage of their life and how to do my best raising them. And of course when Phisher gets to that age, I will have been through it twice already so I'll know how to make that stage of Phishers life a blast as well. Is this why the older children resent the baby at times? Because Mom finally knows what to do? haha. I'm sorry there is no pictures, I uploaded the last bunch to the lap top so they are not on here. I WILL find time soon. I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately and have found myself finally on the other side. The side where I no longer blame God for my life. I have always said I am grateful for my misfortunes because it made me, me and blah blah blah. Now I finally accept the things in my past that I had no control over, I know now that it wasn't God, but the ignorance of man. Finally I can feel at peace with my savior. Not gonna post specifics but I was really put through some horrible things before I even made it to junior high. With those things I made choices that affected my life for the worst. I know now that a girl with out guidance makes mistakes, a woman without guidance takes control and succeeds. Anyway it's wonderful feeling to have let God back into my heart. Well God bless. Have to get back to the family, Have a Merry Christmas everyone! See you in the New Year!